As apologists, we defend the faith
against everything that goes against the Christian faith. It is easy to think
of Jehovah’s Witnesses and Mormons, and even Buddhists and Eastern religions,
and even Islam and Judaism. All of these have a
focus pointing outward from the Christian faith. What about inward?
I’m sure you have all heard the teaching
that when you point at someone you have three fingers pointing back at you. In
other words, it is saying look who’s
talking.
Many of us are able to diffuse arguments against Christianity,
such as from atheism, etc., and having degrees in theology and apologetics, I have seen how
it really helps with confidence in sharing the faith and how it organized my
thoughts when discussing religion and spirituality with people, but what about
when it comes to me? Do I have the right answers? The right heart?
I look at a couple verses in the
Bible mentioning the condition of the heart, and it makes me wonder about my
own.
Proverbs 4:23 says,
“Above all else,
guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life.”
Further along in the Bible, we find
in Jeremiah 17:9,
“The heart is
deceitful above all things and beyond cure. Who can understand it?”
I don’t believe this is some
contradiction that exists in the Bible, because these are both saying the same
thing essentially. These verses are saying that the heart of a person is
something that requires a lot of attention because of how desperate and quick
it is to move or to be moved.
The heart seems to be a severely
fragile thing that all of us have to continually keep in check. I think that
this is especially so for apologists.
James 3:1 teaches us that “Not
many of you should become teachers, my brothers, for you know that we who teach
will be judged with greater strictness.” This should be a little concerning if
nothing else. It is essentially what apologists are doing when they are
defending the faith. We are teaching people the truth. We are redirecting
people toward what is correct. Because of such, we better know what we are
talking about.
Make sure you have it right, but
also, make sure your own heart is in the right place. Prayer is one of our
greatest allies, but there is another ally that we might not think about so
easily, which is reflection. Ask yourself a question such as, “Am I being
gentle and respectful in this conversation/debate? (1 Peter 3:16-17). Am I
prepared to correct, rebuke and encourage with great patience and careful
instruction?” (2 Timothy 4:2). The list goes on.
Sometimes we forget that enemies
of the truth have hearts as well, but they might simply be using them
incorrectly. What I mean is that we make our adversaries out to be monsters and
villains, not a lost soul who has his own problems in his world, and who loves
his mother. It is good to be careful not to treat those who oppose the gospel
as if they are not human. All human beings have hearts, and therefore, contain
something fragile, something vulnerable. Jesus knew this. Why do you think that
He was so loving and gentle with people? Take the woman at the well, for
instance, in John 4.
In reflection of my own past, even
at my furthest distance from God (James 4:7-8), I can still look back and see
that my heart was alive and ready to move.
These below are a few stanzas from
a poem I wrote over a decade ago:
Push harder;
this great knife into my chest.
Finish it! Let
my drained soul finally find rest.
Why must I see you
through sparkling glass?
(I thought I
found her, my beauty, at last!)
Nestled neatly
in the blanket of my heart,
The blade
comfortably sits, slowly cutting me apart.
It is clear that my heart was not
in the right place. I would even go as far as calling this idolatry. But look
at how my heart was clearly unshielded. How did I let a knife get there in the
first place?!
The reason people cannot
understand the heart is because we often let it rule our minds instead of the
other way around. The mind is the guide for the heart (or the guard in Proverbs 4:23 above). The heart
is what moves us, but our minds put a leash on our hearts. I don’t think that
just because we are apologists that we are excused from only using our minds. The vulnerability of the heart reminds us that we are human. Therefore
it seems good for us to reflect immediately on our motives in the heat of the
moment. Even in our lowest state, we still find that our heart is ready to
move. Apologists are vulnerable as well, even if we hate to admit it. Protect
your heart because it is vulnerable.
Stay diligent in your studies. In other words, keep on top of your studies. This will help us protect our hearts, as well as keep our hearts accountable to the truth. “Love
the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul and with all your mind” (Matthew 22:36). “The harvest is
plenty but the [qualified] workers are few” (Matthew 9:37). Be encouraged and
stand firm in the faith (1 Corinthians 16:13). Do these things because the chaotic world needs not only a form of stability, but also because everyone needs Jesus. You’re in my prayers, my friends.
“Be diligent to present yourself approved to
God, a worker who doesn’t need to be ashamed, correctly teaching the word of
truth” –2 Timothy 2:15
Written by Nace Howell through the
grace of the Lord Jesus
© Nace Howell, 2019
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